2000-05-20 - 05:02:37

SparkleEmK: now its my turn to complain

Inxmyxeyes675: yes

SparkleEmK: i feel really bad

SparkleEmK: i was crying on the phone with tyler tonite before we hung up

Inxmyxeyes675: y?

SparkleEmK: im really depressed i cant pin point why and also because i miss him

SparkleEmK: i just feel sooo bad

SparkleEmK: i dont know what to do

SparkleEmK: how to apologize

SparkleEmK: you know?

Inxmyxeyes675: yes

Inxmyxeyes675: seems like your really confused

SparkleEmK: not about him

SparkleEmK: im in love with him

SparkleEmK: and he loves me

SparkleEmK: everything with US is perfect

Inxmyxeyes675: about what

SparkleEmK: i dont know thats what i mean im just depressed

SparkleEmK: and i hate to bring it out on him

SparkleEmK: he says he doesnt mind, but to me i dont think it's fair

Inxmyxeyes675: bring it out on me

SparkleEmK: yeah well i dont wana do that to anyone

SparkleEmK: and i just feel especially bad to do that to him

SparkleEmK: since he needs his sleep

Inxmyxeyes675: do it to me

SparkleEmK: do what?

Inxmyxeyes675: anything u want to let out tell me

SparkleEmK: i think alot of the stress has to do with the surgery

SparkleEmK: and im trying to be strong

SparkleEmK: its harder when your older i think

SparkleEmK: i need to get over it

SparkleEmK: but the day is coming closer and closer

SparkleEmK: ill be alot better in about a week

SparkleEmK: i wont be as sad

Inxmyxeyes675: yeah and it makes u worried as hell the closer is gets

SparkleEmK: yeah..

SparkleEmK: and i wont talk to tyler until like sunday nite really late cos he's going away

SparkleEmK: so i feel im missing out on his support

Inxmyxeyes675: yeah to a show in kentuckey

Inxmyxeyes675: im here

SparkleEmK: yeah i know

SparkleEmK: thanks

Inxmyxeyes675: ill be think about ya monday

SparkleEmK: ill be worried about him too

SparkleEmK: thanks so much

Inxmyxeyes675: dont worry about him he is a big boy

SparkleEmK: i know

SparkleEmK: i hate how i do though

SparkleEmK: its natural i guess

Inxmyxeyes675: yes it is

SparkleEmK: you prob think im possesive

Inxmyxeyes675: nope not at all

SparkleEmK: :::sigh:::

Inxmyxeyes675: what

SparkleEmK: im gonna try starting now

Inxmyxeyes675: okay

SparkleEmK: to be the best girl to him

SparkleEmK: he deserves it

SparkleEmK: with all this shit he has to put up with

Inxmyxeyes675: u are the best girl to him

Inxmyxeyes675: he loves u so much

SparkleEmK: ::smiles::

Inxmyxeyes675: u two are the same about each other

SparkleEmK: yeah i know he loves me

SparkleEmK: i wanna treat him like a god though

SparkleEmK: cos that's what he is to me

Inxmyxeyes675: and he is always freakin out when he cant find ya just u do when u cant find him

SparkleEmK: haha really??

Inxmyxeyes675: yup

Inxmyxeyes675: wheres em did u talk to her how is she do u kno when she is gonna be home

SparkleEmK: no way!

SparkleEmK: that is too funny

Inxmyxeyes675: yes way

SparkleEmK: hey you know you are cheering me up