today i am feeling extremely empty. i can feel it physically. not in my stomach, but in my mind and heart and other parts of my body. the weather is not helping at all. how in the world am i going to motivate myself today? i have to write a speech. 8-10minutes. it can be on anything, yet i can't think of a thing to do it on. i have to study for a quiz also. i can't stand change. i guess you could say i'm your average human being seeing as it's human nature not to like change. i know my friends and family said i did well, but i felt like the audience couldn't stand me. or got annoyed every time i went to sing something. i never felt like this before. i dont know. it's fucking lame. i couldn't have done much more though. whatever. time to attack the world.