Friday, Jan. 24, 2003 - 2:41 p.m.

holy crap this shit is good. the reason i have this journal is to be able to reflect on my past obviously. i need to shares these 3 past entries. i miss the old days.

This was all when i first started at Suffolk. The date October 27, 1999. the title "today is the day"

this dumbass skinhead was totally having a go at me for being sxe today..it was in the comp lab, but i took zero shit from the kid. i think in reality he was messin with me but i told him off so bad that everyone in the lab was staring at me. you dont mess with me when it comes to that. he was tryin to tell me that what they said on 20/20 about sxe kids hating everyone who isnt sxe and hurting others. but its sooooooo not true and i totally VOICED my opinion. i think he got the picture cos as he left the lab hes like punk rock girl is mad at me. i was like dude dont even start cos i could go on all day about this. and another thing im not punk rock girl. whered he get that shiznit from?

Let's call this next one the Follow Up...the date November 2, 1999. the title of the entry "Classic"

time-425pm

place-donahue building

SKINHEAD who made fun of em's x's on her hands last week: ( in a happy happy voice ) HEY WHATS UP!!!!!

Emily: hey

SKINHEAD NERD: ( all cheery ) so what are you doing?

Emily: ( in an unexcited voice )chillin out maxin relaxin all cool

SKINHEAD NERD: ( still unusually nice ) but its not summertime!!!!!!!

Emily: ( monotone voice ) you're thinking of the wrong song. im singing the theme song to the fresh prince of bel air. you are thinking of summertime by will smith.

SKINHEAD NERD: ( feeling all stupid ) err close enough. ( all happy again and obviously wanting to talk more )CYA!!!

Emily: ( walking away without a glance back ) bye

the moral to this story kids....NOONE Messes with em. and noone harrasses me about bein sxe. its not something i preach, but something i practice. the personal choice i have made. and i could care less if the whole world did whatever. its up to you!!!!! peace and harmony sez justin timberlake. respect to the skins yo! and EVERYBODY!

Conclusion...titled "Classic Part 2"

Date: November 5, 1999

setting: suffolk computer lab

time: 515pm

characters involved: guess who? ME aka sxe girl and the ever elusive yet intriguing skinhead ( who has hair )

i walk into the lab...i note he is there but think oh good! he doesnt see me. time passes by..about 10 min. as im typing away furiously to my mother a piece of paper is placed on my keyboard. in big letters it reads "Hello Sxe girl." i continue to get a series of papers from the lad.....they go like this.

1)hello sxe girl

2)are you still pissed at me?

EM YELLS BACK:NO i was never mad !!!!!!!!!!

3){photo of a sxe tattoo}

4)look-i got you a present

5){another sxe tattoo photo}

6)no...2 presents...

EM: hahahah ill hang these up!!!!!! (still no words from the boy)

7)you have to admit-i am making an effort atleast

EM: you are weird!

8){he hands me this one and scrams for the door}Hello sxe girl. my name is cornelius. i was just giving you shit. so if you were annoyed i apologize. so there. it was just mindless annoyance. if u ever get bored, give me a call. then i promise ill stop annoying you. then he wrote his #...if you dont call, ill cry--but thats ok too. no pressure or anything,just my fragile psyche.

he never said one word to me! just handed these little print out notes one by one..kinda interesting. but is this a joke or what? i mean come on CORNELIUS?!!??! id call him if his name was jeff or matt or mike. maybe im just prejudice of names........or just a shy little girl

In conclusion, i was and still am cool. hahah