i guess im ok. i could be alot worse. im not crying. im not frowning. im trying to be optimistic. everything has a reason, so i guess i will see what this reason is someday. im going to be strong about this, and not let it ruin my life. i almost feel relieved, because now i know the truth and can move on. things like this always bring me closer to friends and remind me that people are here for me. tonite alone, i talked to 3 friends on the phone about it (fazle, vegan dan, and labaki) and went out with two good friends-erica and liz. just being/talking with all these people made me feel so incredibly loved, more love than ive felt in a long time. so in a way i feel ok. its weird but true. "i will love again. even if it takes a lifetime to get over you....stronger than before" time for me to conquer the world