i read an entry from around this time a year ago. all these feelings came back, bad-negative ones. im so glad i am a year away from that point in my life,,,...those terrible, sickening feelings. they helped me to grow, but that's about it. i wouldn't go back a year for a million dollars. well maybe, but thinking about that time in my life.......it was scary. moving somewhere new, not knowing a soul(no not even one) and having your whole world shattered in front of you. i learned alot, and i am awesome because it happened. i was awesome before, but now i am even more awesomer. i dont think thats a real world. i healed on my own. i did it all on my own. i didnt let anyone overcome me.......i moved on with my held high. im not trying to be high on myself but its too bad not everyone can be like that. im not saying it was easy, but anyone can get over a true broken heart. but i know alot of people dont want to. im not really thinking of anyone imparticular but im just thinking about past thoughts and ideas from friends who break up with their bf's/gf's and they dont fully allow themselves to end it mentally. its really too bad. its almost ice cream time. but before that its cookie time. so sugar wafers here i come!